I hope you had the time of your life.

My final blog post of not only AP lit, but my senior is going to be about high school. Many people told me when I was an incoming freshman that these next four years were going to fly by. At first I didn't believe them, I knew high school was going to to take forever and that it would feel like forever before I got my life started. But now as I enter my last week, it is now hitting me like a ton of bricks. I'm done. It's time to grow up and go out into the world. Which scares the crap out of me. How can shy and quiet Kathleen now be almost second generation alumni of St.Mark's high school is going to college in just 3 months. Sometimes when I say that, it makes me happy but for the most part it freaks me out. I don't think I am ready to do this all on my own. I loved high school, yes sometimes I would get fed up with my friends or get overwhelmed with school work. But the memories and the friendships I have created are something that I will never forget. I met my best friend, I fell in love and did some crazy stuff that I probably shouldn't have. But that's high school. You have to make every moment count, live for each day and seize every opportunity. Because one day, you are going to blink and be entering you last week of classes. These individuals used to be strangers to me, and now I have become friends with most of them. I'm sad to see high school be over, however I am so ready to get rid of this uniform. I've learned a lot of things these past four years walking up and down these halls, I found myself and realized what I am truly passionate about. Everything that I have experienced, that I have been a part of at St.Mark's will always be apart of me. No matter where we go or what we end up doing, the class of 2013 will always be united because there is no other class like ours. With our spirit and determination and our ability to learn. I would not want to be graduating with any other people. So, that's that. Thank you Mrs. Healey for being the best teacher I have ever had.

Gatsby, what Gatsby?

I know that I blogged about The Great Gatsby earlier in the year, but now that I have seen the movie it is practically all I can think about. For Mother's Day for my mom, my sister and I treated her to a movie. Of course, she chose The Great Gatsby and I was not going to object to seeing Leonardo DiCaprio. My biggest concern with the movie was that it was not going to be done right and that all of the motifs, symbols and themes would not be able to shine like they had in the book. But thankfully, I was wrong. Throughout the movie I was just having flashbacks to sophomore English class with Fio. And I hate to brag, but I rocked this book. For some reason I was just able to understand everything that F. Scott Fitzgerald wanted the reader to see about the 1920s. I always say that I was born in the wrong time and if I could be born any other time I would want to be dropped right into a party of Mr. Gatsbys'. This time period just amazes me, to be able to do whatever and say whatever and not have to worry about the consequences of the situation is what I wish I was able to do now in the time I live in. Being young and free is probably the biggest message that I got out of this book. Anyway, back to the movie. For one I really enjoyed how much the director focused on the green light and that he kept having Nick explain that the light symbolized Jay Gatsby's hope and his love of Daisy. All of the actors that portrayed the characters did an amazing job and for the most part, are what I thought they would act like in my head. For example, as much as I loved Daisy's character and how she was so innocent she annoyed me sometimes.  What that's how I felt in the book. She has this amazing guy, Gatsby, basically on his knees begging for her to love him and she won't leave her arrogant, pig-headed husband because she would rather have a secure life with him. However, George was not as how I had pictured him. Yes he was supposed to dirty and gross, but I was expecting a much younger man and maybe a bit more attractive? I don't know, I probably shouldn't keep judging people by their appearance. Overall I absolutely loved the movie because it brought the American dream alive again. It showed the struggle of races and the competition between new and old money. Whenever I really enjoy a book that has been turned into a movie I always sometimes wish that there would be a sequel. But for The Great Gatsby, I don't think there needs to be. Everything that needed to be said, was and that time period is nothing but a memory now.

The Dead Poets Society

My dad was watching The Dead Poets Society the other night and asked me to watch it with him. The title sounded stupid to me but I did not have anything else to do so I watched it with him. And oddly enough, I loved the movie. I loved everything that it stood for, knowing that all the boys backed up their friend and appreciated each other. I think that most people have seen or at least heard of this movie. The movie was filmed in 1989 and the set was a local school that is actually near my house. In the movie, a teacher- John Keatings- is assigned to a class to teach english.  Where he introduces all the boys to poetry and how to seize the day. This movie made the phrase "carpe diem" extremely popular. A group of friends form the group called the dead poets society and all write their names inside an old book of poetry. My reaction to the ending was just extremely sad because even though I believe in following your dreams, the one boy did not have to die to make that big of a statement. I actually cried a little bit because of seeing how everyone else reacted to his death. The scene I disliked the most was when Neil (the dead guy) had just died and his parents force an investigation to take place because they believe they had nothing at all to do with the suicide of Neil. One of the boys even suggests that the best thing to do is to have the teacher take the blame for everything that is happened that way he loses his job and they can stay in school. After the fallout of the society, english class resumes and is now being taught by the headmaster himself. When Mr. Keatings comes into class, Todd tries to explain what has happened and that they were forced into signing the petition that he was the cause of the club being formed. Nolan, the headmaster, flips out which leads the boys to recite a poem while standing on top of their desks. Mr. Keatings leaves the room touched that his boys got the message he was trying to teach them. Fun fact about this movie, my mom's cousin was an extra in the film. This movie taught me that nothing should be taken for granted such as a life of someone. And that no matter what, you should always stand up for what you believe in. Because in the end, nobody can ever take away what you believe and what you stand for. 

Literary Death Match

It kind of makes me sad that AP lit is over, but at the same time it is a big weight lifted off my shoulders. During our final days of class, the literary death match was actually really helpful for me on the exam. Mainly because, in my third essay I wrote about one of the books that we discussed. Anyway, when we were reviewing and talking about the big picture of each book I will admit I was so confused about what was going on. Even though it did not seem like I was fully aware of what was going on, I was taking some notes and forming my own opinions in my head. What I liked the most about going over all the books was that it allowed me to relive the stories and reform my opinions about each book. For example, I was able to fall in love with The Great Gatsby and Frankenstein all over again. The two groups that presented these two books I was extremely jealous of. But they did a really great job on showing how amazingly well written these two novels are. However, some of the books I still disliked even after reading them before. Such as my own presentation about As I Lay Dying. I don't know why but I never liked this book, and of course I got a good grade on my in class essay for this novel. Overall, I enjoyed this exercise and I enjoyed even more that it was not a grade. My experience in AP lit this year was awesome, I made some new friends and found out a lot about myself and who I am. I'm so happy I made the decision to take this class, even though I don't fit in with most of the class they are individuals that I won't ever forget and will always refer to some of hand outs and essays for future assignments in my english classes in college.